Last night in the dark, I was attempting to 'see' in the darkness in order to promote my dreaming attention. As I drifted off I was immediately transported to a night club, which had been a topic of conversation earlier that day.
I found it to be a very cumbersome dream.
I was getting drinks for people, and forgetting them, and drinking myself. I seemed to be unable to move. I was looking around the room and becoming increasingly annoyed, at first I thought my inability to move properly was due to the drinking. I struggled to move around and get annoyed with one of my friends to the point where I was gritting my teeth and becoming increasingly frustrated, outside I even started to write 'fuck off' many times on a leaf, due to the fact I couldn't function properly and my frustration was like a heavy load. I attempted to run for a bus but couldn't move forward quick enough and try as I might I only managed to move a short way before being stopped by a seemingly inpenetrable wall. My dreaming attention mustve ran out and I woke up wrapped in the blanket sweating profusely.
It was later on in the day today that I realised that my inability to move was due to the fact that I was trying to move like a person, I even came to conclusion in my dream that it was the drink that was stopping me, obviously this is all trivial nonsense, the reason I could not move was that I had got to my energy body but had not trained well, therefore I was unable to work out that I was dreaming, and was also unable to remember that the way to move in dreams is through will and intent, not through moving my legs. Frustrating.
Its also worthy to note here that for the first time, I remember I was able to 'feel' with my eyes whilst I was 'seeing' before I drifted off, a remarkable achievement.
Certainly, it would seem that I am finally making some progress. Or perhaps don juan would say that I am just 'indulging'
Login
FAQ
Search
Members
